People talk about doing good you know the Pay it forward. Everyone talks about the blessings and feeling awesome inside when a good deed has been accomplished. It seems no one wants to tell you the road is hard. You choose to do the right thing because it's the right thing to do. You don't do it because it feels good. Sometimes You don't go ahead and tip the waitress because it feels good. You do it because it's the right thing to do.
     This past year has been a huge struggle for me. We chose to do somethings we felt God asked us to do. The scary thing is that it involved giving a lot of money up. It also included doing a very kind thing for a family that needed some hope. It was a hard choice to make but we felt like we couldn't hold back when God told us to give. I honestly thought time would pass faster than it has, I honestly thought God was going to magically send us a huge check in the mail to cover all of this.
We have even had to change or give up plans we had made for our kids and a vacation.
I am not saying we weren't blessed we were. People have given us money and my parents practically gave us the mini van they paid off after they bought a newer one. The blessing just didn't come the way I thought they would..
      I ended up going to the chiropractor for a few months. Paying out of pocket. I ended up going to the orthodontist twice, and buying a crazy expensive mouth guard. My car blew a piston ring. We still owe money on that car. We did get a paid raise at work. We do get ocassionally see some money handed to us.  I am greatful to my inlaws and my parents for taking up some of the slack finically for us.
   We are still blessed, I still feel good knowing we do the right thing. I do however know sometimes the blessing don't come the way we think they should. Sometimes we wait and we know God,'s blessings are better than what we expect. Just know that sometimes it really does physically hurt to do the right thing.