Hi, I am guessing many of you know me already as I am going to post this link everywhere  can :).
Thank you for visiting and spending your time with me. Lately I have felt a need to type and make a new blog. I have never been very good at spelling and my grammar is even worse. This things have kept me for writing in the past. I have since realized that most writers have an editor or two. I also have no idea how to make a website. I guess I will just have to rely on a template for now.
   I have written a few posts lately on my other blog, but it just didn't seem right. It's time to start a new page. I will use this post to actually introduce myself to you today.
   I was 29, and in the process of getting a diagnosis for my daughter, or at least trying to. She was about 18 months old and something wasn't right. She was born at 28 weeks and we had always been watching her close to see what was going on. She wasn't speaking at the pace we thought she should be. she was frustrated very often. She also was not able to ask for all the things she needed. She was able to lead me to what she needed. This we were told was a good sign. After trying a few times we finally had therapist in place to help. It was about this time that I realized there was a reason for the way I had felt and acted for most of my life. when my daughter was diagnosed with sensory processing disorder I realized that was something I understood. I had been dealing with sensory issue my entire life. I always got car sick, I always had panic and anxiety attacks every time we went somewhere new. I needed to be with my parents even as a teenager to feel secure. I had to sleep a lot in order to function.  I could hear sounds other people couldn't hear. I was extremely emotional. I could never eat breakfast with out getting sick.  So when we had my child diagnosed with Sensory processing disorder I didn't realize it would change my life in more ways that I could even imagine.
  The older my daughter got, the more we were able to began therapy We learned how to navigate the stormy waters of meltdown town, and we learned foods and places  to avoid. When I was researching spd. I came across a few sites that dealt with spd in adults. I was able to find a few friends to connect to. I no longer felt alone in the struggles I was facing. I was able to find a method for coping, and then even avoiding many of the panic attacks that had plagued me since I was 12.
   I still suffer from depression at times. I am lonely from being at home with a special needs child, but I have been able to avoid a panic attack for almost a year now. This is huge. I was having panic attacks at least once a month before I started healing. In the past few months, I have felt a huge calling to reach out to the parents of children that have sensory processing disorder. I am astonished and amazed to find out spd. is in fact something that passes through family genes.  Many parents deal with not only a child's spd but their own as well.  We need a support system in place. We need each other.
I personally believe there is a power that comes from asking for help. There is a huge movement now on Instagram of women posting prescriptions for medication to combat anxiety and depression. I am a huge believer in getting out in the world instead of sitting on a computer but yet, I find a huge support system here I have never found anywhere else. I am strangely blunt and honest. I find it hard not to share my thoughts and feelings. I am trying to find a healing in sharing here. This isn't a place to talk to each other unless you want to. I want you to be able to read this, and I don't have to know about it. I want those that are dealing with anxiety, depression, and mental disorders to be able to come and feel peace. I want pastors and pastors spouses to come here and learn. I want friends to be able to understand. so welcome. Take your shoes off and get comfortable. it's going to be quite a ride.