Some days

When everything hurts.

I do okay most days. I actually mentally feel pretty stable right now. I admit my phone has been in my hand pretty much all week unless I have been sleeping. Which I haven't,so......
I woke this morning hurting. My child has been sleeping in my bed agian and it's miserable. She weighs 60 pounds and is just about as big as I am.
  I feel like I have a respitory virus. My chest hurts when I breathe. I have had 20 ounces of coffee it seems and still nothing. I hurt. My child lost it on me when I told her no computer after being in it practically all day. She fights with me a lot, and then she snuggles and gets mad about the situation. I am trying to wean my kids off of mine craft. They had been attached to it almost as bad as me with the phone.
     I admit it's probablly to deattach to the real world. It's probablly so they can do what they want to and not have the limits like they do it real life. Damn it, I try so hard to be everything h for them, and one of them doesn't understand hard work is the only way anyone gets anything. She thinks it's handed to them. I don't think she understands the concept not because she is a brat but because it's a concept and not a physical concrete thing she can touch.
It's been a hard year, I am so ready to see it go away, physically I am healing. Mentally I am as well but gosh darn it I am exhausted.